Poison

I'm a poison.
I took an innocent girl,
and stole her from the light
I made my darkness glow
I appear as an angel before her eyes
But I'm a repear,
Covered in my own blood.
I'd never hurt her..
I love her.
I hate me.
I punish me, and give her gifts
I don't want to ruin her.
I'm using her
She makes me smile
I can't resist her beauty
I want to know
I need to know
EVERYTHING
I love life
I want to die
Miserable and never ending
I've gone numb and given up
She holds my hand
She's warm to my cold blood.
I cling so tight
Crying hiding the tearing in my hair
I cut off the hair
I don't want to hide them
I love you..
I want you to smile
I want you to avoid me
I don't want me
To be your future
But
I want to be in your future
I can change
I can heal us both.
so let me touch
Your beating heart
I love you.